love u always

2010-11-10T20:27:00.000+08:00

i want june back

2010-10-23T07:34:00.000+08:00

2010-10-18T19:33:00.002+08:00

once upon a time
you walked into my life,
filling it with rhythm and rhyme.
just like all happiness,
it didnt last.
faded,
you're now a thing of the past.
you came,
like a thief.
you came,
to deceive.
i feel like a fool,
for believing in you.
how is it that you did this to me?
was this how we were meant to be?
are these mere memories, or reality?
looking at this life of mine.
i realized,
you're Once upon a time

2010-10-17T10:15:00.003+08:00

I FUCKING NEED TO SMOKE.
promises? fuck them.
where's she ? not in my life
and i thought YOU were different.
i thought u were better than cheryl, i thought
but guess not. guess it wasnt true.
like as if u care about how i feel.
u dont.
in fact, u only come when u needed something.
even now as i am openly condemning u,
ur selfishness leaves u oblivious to the obvious.
u know what, i dont need you.
u can go fucking keep ur broken promises.
oh, my bad.
how inconsiderate i am!
i sure u had no intention of breaking promises,
no intention of cheating my feelings,
i'm sure that u were just caught up with the other things.
no time, no interest.
a relationship is 2 way.
i decided,from today,
that if u dont put in any effort, neither would i.
no one invests in a failing relationship.
why should i care about u so much?
u crossed the line.

2010-10-03T12:21:00.001+08:00

obviously i am wasting my time on you, with you .

2010-09-29T18:45:00.000+08:00

my solution, simple: end it, cause it doesnt work

2010-09-26T18:00:00.002+08:00

i decided to review one of my evil doings today. below is a copy of a conversation which took place between a girl (fat bitch) and i.

ME:heh. so i heard u said i look ugly?

HER:When?

ME:recently. WHY did u go and accuse cheryl? it was a passing statement which i overheard. logically, a NORMAL person wouldnt insult someone whom he/she doesn't know. right? so i asked u cause i didnt believe it. i mean even if u said i looked ugly, what can i do about it? it's your mouth not mine. if u think u look so attractive, then good, dont have to put someone else down right? but of course, we should always examine OURSELVEs before we judge others. since i am ugly then Maybe i should have a look at your picture to see whats not ugly.. sounds fair?

ME:one more thing. this is between u and i . dont bring cheryl or anyone else in

HER:Hi, since its a passing statement, and I'm totally not close to you, could you kindly please tell me where you heard it from?

ME:I saw ur photo... I think it's ur mirror problem... Besides, u insulted me first ... So on what grounds are u demanding information ?? Seriously , I don't see why I should tell you what u wanna know nor should I be nice to u cause obviously u lack the ability to respect others . The conversation ends here... You're so attractive, I'd rather turn gay. Ironically , beauty is in the eyes of the beholder... Pffft :) bye. Oh, leave Cheryl ALONE , please.. It'll be much appreciate ...

ME:And one more thing ... I DON'T EVER WANNA BE CLOSE TO YOU.. I DETEST BIG THINGS LIKE YOURSELF :D

PLEASE NOTE SHE CRIED WHEN I SMILED IN SATISFACTION

2010-09-18T20:29:00.002+08:00

oh, what a pity. i feel sorry for myself. i think i am mad, literally. FYI, i am free tomorrow but i choose not to go.. whatever for? heh. i have to fight myself so that i wont take it on you. FUCKING TWICE THIS WEEK. monday and today. lets not forget thursday too... butch _|_

2010-09-16T19:36:00.001+08:00

maybe i am just not important enough to you.
no.... i guess u were busy.
i know, u didnt forget me cuz u cant forget whats already forgotten,
ya, u the best

2010-09-11T13:55:00.001+08:00

i feel so.. second class.. so left out of the picture..it's not that i dont trust you... it's i cant stand it... but i never speak of it cause... i dont wanna ruin things

2010-09-09T10:07:00.001+08:00

how strange,i showed u how i felt and u didnt realize. heh, this's life i guess ...

2010-09-07T21:41:00.002+08:00

with all the pain and confusion
i gripped the blade of illusion.
resting it gently on my skin,
it found its way home within.
the frenzied rushing of blood,
burst forth from my heart.
from my mouth,
they rushed out.
from the wound,
they gushed out.
in the final moments,
i wanted to tell you
I LOVE YOU.
but it was too late.
for i,
was already dead

2010-09-05T20:18:00.002+08:00

guessed i shouldnt have. why am i breaking my own heart? paranoid, insecure, cold and very much confused. i would want to spend a day, by the sea... smoking and drinking abit. more smoking.. every cigarette shortens one's life by 1 day. so ever stick i smoke, reduces one day of suffering for me

2010-09-05T19:27:00.000+08:00

http://mylittleworldofdarkness.blogspot.com/ ... =) surprise

2010-09-05T19:05:00.002+08:00

A LITTLE TOKEN OF APPRECIATION :D

2010-09-05T11:40:00.000+08:00

jan.. HAMMY USE UR NAMETAG :) LOL

2010-08-30T21:23:00.001+08:00

yes june. i will give u all the time in the world . like i said, i will catch u when u fall :) lol.why u neh reply my sms ): ?! what is ur answer?!!?!?! i got something i wanna show u and tell u.

2010-08-29T11:41:00.003+08:00

dear june,
why must you do all this? you know i genuinely care for u and always have ur best interests at heart. and yet.. u, of all people, u let me down. u said u wouldnt back out (YES U DID SAY IT).pffft. lets face it, u just dont wanna end it, it not abt second chances ( which, i must say, is a bloody terrible excuse) . you make us look bad. after all the time i spend talking to you, getting people on ur side and u do something like that. sadly for u, i didnt sleep well so i am feeling veery much evil now. anyway, imagine what will everything think of you? and me. i can tell u that the relationship WILL end badly, i can bet my head on it. and you, WTF , you're supposed to be my twinnie, i was NEVER that dumb, even with cheryl. cheryl DIDNT extort money from me. honestly, i dont bloody know whats going on in ur mind. the whole bloody world will agree that he is a jerk. ironically, u DO know that too YET u REFUSE to save yourself. u are NOT being a martyr for any cause. WHAT IS THIS?! u leave me infuriated, disgusted and hurt. hurt cuz i am angry with u, being angry with someone i hold dear is very much tiring and saddening.at this juncture, i'd like to tell u that i am not gonna abandon u, i will still be there for u, but i wont do more than counsel u cause thats no point in it. but when things do get bad, i'll be the first to catch u when u fall
think abt what i've said IF u want to.
teddy

2010-08-26T20:17:00.000+08:00

drinking and smoking

2010-08-24T18:44:00.002+08:00

june , are u free this week? go swimming?? please... sigh, this sucks.. why cant we like converse more conveniently? this is horrible

2010-08-22T19:00:00.001+08:00

it was nice knowing u but i had enough

2010-08-22T11:18:00.001+08:00

after yesterday, i realized.. u are worth it all. its mad but.. u really are worth it.. i would incinerate the world (including u) if i cant get u. perhaps, its passion? nah. idk

2010-08-19T22:54:00.000+08:00

H-E-L-P

2010-08-19T22:16:00.002+08:00

i think i am mad. fucking out of my mind. i cant continue... i willl hit a breakdown. omg, this is bad. everything closes in on me. where are the people i call friends? cant blame them for not being there for me, after all, isnt that a bonus? i... i cant take it anymore.. it is over, mylife.dear melissa, where are u? cheryl? june? lakeisha? jan? shi min? sheryl? oh i forgot, i deserve this.

2010-08-10T19:50:00.001+08:00

FUCK OFF SLUT

2010-08-07T21:42:00.001+08:00

as a predator, i stalk my prey. i keep myself alert and aware of my victims movement, to find a pattern so as to plan my next move. i stalk, secretly

2010-08-06T21:00:00.001+08:00

there were so many things i wish i could tell u, like i didnt cut cuz of cheryl, i cut for.. you

2010-08-06T20:54:00.002+08:00

cheryl cheryl.sigh.. when i received ur sms today, i knew i was in trouble. the emotions i have been trying to suppress suddenly sprang to life. not the positive emotions of loving u, but rather, the moments of hurt. it was painful , idk, i havent told anyone about the outcome.

2010-08-05T22:47:00.001+08:00

this time, i hit a wall. there's no turning back nor moving forward. i am stuck

2010-08-03T20:07:00.001+08:00

this time, i walk into the exam hall, not madly in love with someone as it has been. but rather, i walk in emo to the core. i burn with a passion to die

2010-08-03T18:13:00.002+08:00

poof! u appear and disappear. after all that has happened, it has sparked off a series of events. a revival of a past i once thought was dead. i now EMBRACE death. so lucrative ,so attractive. does life mean anything to me now? no, i am sick of it

2010-08-02T21:12:00.000+08:00

2010-08-02T18:44:00.003+08:00

the time had come, the time to let go of you. it's draining the life out of me, the thoughts, they use up spaces that i could use for studying. the heart is disrupted by everything that goes on. it's ok, i dont think i need you.

2010-08-01T16:19:00.001+08:00

why? why was i spared?! I SOULD HAVE DIED! I BLODDY DAMN WANT TO . WHY? WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS SUFFERING? I GET WHAT I DONT WANT.

2010-07-29T18:19:00.003+08:00

i find it funny, how i use to think that cheryl is my everything.now, where's she? pffft. she better thank ___ & the others for patching me up so quickly, 2 days was all it took. boom! fast, isnt it? since that day, thinks just got busier and more confusing.. but still , i have to admit i am better than before, in a way better state

2010-07-27T18:13:00.000+08:00

as the days pass, the feeling grows... i think i really do love her.

2010-07-25T10:55:00.002+08:00

the problem was there. a choice was made, the duo now temporarily separated. each,craving for the other . one asks himself " why must it be like that? we know the outcome of it all.. why delay?" a contradicting thought enters his mind and he swiftly ends his mental debate. he decides to run from his fear, run from everything.. turn workaholic . he knows not of what she thinks. that thought, sends a wave of uncertainty through him. he is confused, very much confused.

2010-07-24T20:42:00.006+08:00

love, filled the air. whilst two sat there, immerse in the passion that spurred them. few words were uttered, the silence was a language itself. the atmosphere was tensed but calm. the duo lay there , in the world of their own. nothing mattered for two was one. as if it were planned, their bodies co operate in the silence, gracefully.it was new to them, the experience, but for every second of it, it was worthwhile

2010-07-24T09:19:00.002+08:00

then when all seemed lost. the light shone. the warmth and security it brings is beyond my expression. a mysterious connection with a girl, jump-starts everything in a blink of an eye. a connection so strong and accurate, worth every risk worth taking. unknowingly, i embraced her whole-heartedly . i fell for her. then again, the risk is high. the element of fear lingers in the air , eating into the love driven confidence. what then do i do?

2010-07-22T15:26:00.002+08:00

well.. horrible was the breakup. i couldnt sleep. i miss cheryl.. alas, she hath decided. what a fool i was. i place my heart and soul into the futile relationship. i am filled with disgust! ashamed of bringing this shortcoming upon myself... the greatest beauty of love is how lethal it is. well, there's nothing i can do now besides having to bear with the emptiness and loneliness. Oh how i detest the night! the darkness of night creeps into my soul and making things all so cold! when darkness engulf , it strangles the life out of its victim. victim, i was, many times.

2010-07-20T19:31:00.000+08:00

WHATEVER CHERYL. THANKS SO FUCKING MUCH. BLOOD, U WANT, BLOOD U WILL GET

2010-07-19T18:56:00.001+08:00

2010-07-18T14:59:00.003+08:00

i really wish u were her nat. it's like... u seem to be the only one i chose to relate to, i really miss you. times are so bad and i guess i need your comfort... i wouldnt bug ming shuang cause she's like so busy, too busy to spare time. i've also never really shared my problems with her as compared to you.. this sucks and nat, i really need you

2010-07-18T00:15:00.003+08:00

mel, i am not angry with u. at least u are a more of a true friend then denise is. she's one person i learnt that is totally not worth any of the time and effort i put in, she just makes empty promises upon empty promises, piling up rubbish. she showed no interest in out friendship, nothing. like a flicker of a candle, she's gone. but it no longer matters to me now cause even if she were gone for good, wouldn't affect me.

2010-07-17T23:45:00.002+08:00

mel, i cant believe it. u are actually willing to give me up .. why?! i know what u are going through and when i offered, i expected an answer along the lines of " it is unfair if u do this" but NO, i got a immediate yes. what is this? is it because u know that i wont leave and u capitalize on that? this is.. madness. why is it that u're always left at the mercy of the guy? shouldnt it be the other way round? the things u say abt her and the things u do, brings a similar message across to me. infuriating. i wont try to change things,no.. u picked & u chose, i abide. someday, u will understand where i'm coming from.

2010-07-17T23:44:00.002+08:00

OMG >< Ashley! u're back. different but nonetheless, still as lovely :D it's been sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo long... miss those times.

2010-07-17T15:01:00.002+08:00

i dont wanna feel the way i do towards you.its not that i want to, but u make me feel like this. things that we become used to, we take for granted. things that we never once appreciated, we take for granted too.that is why, part of me regrets knowing u.u're no different from the rest, u are all the SAME... stop lying to me

2010-07-11T16:19:00.002+08:00

i realized that i am caught in between emo cultural and "normal". so which should i choose to join? staying like this will destroy me.mel, could u help me? ... what are the differences? uh.. if i turn to the emo side, i will turn myself anti-social, i will inflict even greater amount of pain-cum-pleasure on myself and i won't find life very exciting . however, i won't suicide. on the other hand, IF i try to be "normal" then ... well... i will loae part of myself.. so mel mel mel.. help me choose!

2010-07-06T18:34:00.002+08:00

i am down, utterly down.
my whole life is reduced to a frown.
heavy, lies the crown

2010-07-02T20:27:00.003+08:00

dearest melissa.
i am worried for you. u've always been such a great friend to me and have really supported me through the years [i think] and i really admire u. u've done many things in my life that i cant thank u enough for :D so mel, please stop hurting urself. take care ~

2010-06-20T21:05:00.000+08:00

mel mel mel. i really need you. i am so confused! help me D: sigh...

2010-06-13T09:30:00.000+08:00

i fell for the most impossible girl

2010-06-06T22:31:00.000+08:00

this is for you

2010-06-04T21:20:00.001+08:00

CHERYL MAKES ME CRY.

2010-06-04T21:13:00.002+08:00

WHAT THE FUCK! THANKS FOR EVERYTHING, REALLY. i feel like an idiot. DO U THINK I'VE NO FUCKING FEELINGS OR WHAT?! ok, nvm. fine, u know what... i understand, i wont forgive u neither will i hold anyting against you. bye

2010-05-18T19:53:00.000+08:00

dede, u disappoint me

2010-05-11T17:41:00.001+08:00

my greatest regret in my ENTIRE life is joining ______. i hate them. bunch of #@$!@#$@! . seriously, WHATEVER ASSHOLES

2010-05-03T09:51:00.002+08:00

sometimes i feel that u are genuine.
i was wrong.
u are a fake.
toy with me,
cheat me,
whats next?
yes! i am letting go.
why hold on to something like that?
i am not gonna cheat myself.

2010-04-21T16:44:00.002+08:00

the time has come.
dark days near.
filling us with fear.
why?
we ask ourselves.
must to lose,
little to gain.
we see our life spill like grains.
so beware,
i tell myself.
for the time has come

2010-04-15T19:08:00.002+08:00

THE SUN ARISES!

hahahahaha...

anyway, last week.

i went for this party and there was this..uh.. really big thing there.

IT was PATHETIC.. its first state was :" are u gay?" and "why are u so small?"

LIKE omg,

she is ssoooooooo fat. how fat? my 2 thighs = to her one thigh.

she can cause an eclipse!

FAT<>

2010-04-06T18:06:00.002+08:00

woah.

who are u?

OMG, look into the MIRROR!

u look... like an oil tank.

oopsie, pardon me.

u are fat.

yes! fat!

and please.. no idiot takes a subject combi like urs.

are u very clever? no.

pretty? no.

smart?no.

lovely? no.

i havent said anything abt u,

and u lashed out at me.

W-O-W.

2010-04-01T18:06:00.001+08:00

so lets see. one idiot cause me to miss my breakfast yesterday, one idiot told me things i shouldnt know. however, i am both please and displease with him. please because what he told me allow me to understand certain things better, displease because i am totally upset that he told me some false info. what more shall i say? i dont know why i made certain choices but i definitely do regret them now,

2010-03-23T19:12:00.000+08:00

i dont like you,

asshole..

stupid people,

waste my time.

FUCKED UP FATHER,PLEASE GO AND KILL YOURSELF.

2010-03-21T09:32:00.001+08:00

YOU CAME BACK !!!! :DDDD

IS THIS A NEW BEGINNING?

CAN SHE COME BACK TOO?

she, who i so love.

she, who i so miss.

she, who loves me not now.

sad. but happy.

2010-03-08T17:49:00.002+08:00

what should i do? i am,utterly lost. screw this !! i am lost... confused.shoot me please..... stuck, with no cigarettes, no alcohol , bored of bleeding.. whats next?

2010-03-06T10:03:00.002+08:00

all the mix emotions, all the hurt, pain and anger i hold inside. with it , comes the likes of many depression , should i suicide ? is this my breaking point? what the fuck am i doing now? why bother to hold on to a dream that will never be realized? why the hell do i bother to spend my time and effort to fight or and care for what i perceived to be the most suitable "group" and the closest state of Utopia ? For what? oh fking please just shoot me, kill me . i fucking am not gonna continue on like this? what now? few packets of cigarettes and a case of beer? no, maybe i should increase the lines on my hand?? new goal 400? WHAT THW SHOULD I DO WITH MY FUCKING LIFE?! ( NOTE: here fuck is used not n its literal terms, viewer discretion is advised ) anyway, WHAT THE HELL SHOULD I DO? WHY CANT I JUST FUCKING KILL MYSELF? smoking, a crime? no, why? DOES IT LOOK LIKE I HAVE ANY OTHER FUCKING ALTERNATIVE? i am fucking banned from swimming, with my wrist condition ( 2 mths mc from all physical activities) WHAT THE HELL AM I LEFT WITH TO DO?! I AM SO FUCKING ANGRY TILL MY HEAD IS BURNING, temp now is .. 38.2 .. dont believe? measure ur own temperature when u're angry.. one person alone is not enough to shoulder me, where is cheryl? lost in her own world. i shoulder so many, yet there's none really there for me. Being angry is tiring. but like who the fuck cares? i loathe my family, i loathe my cca, i loathe myself. the girl, whose heart i destroyed and then fell in love with. i want her. most importantly, i want death

2010-03-06T08:54:00.002+08:00

this time, i know i am screwed. thank goodness, shi min's still there for me. though... how should i put this? i am freaking pissed? what is this ? a brotherhood or a farce? yes yes, keep talking, perhaps u wanna tell it to me in my face? get this straight, u fucking prick, u dont need me, i damn well dont need you too. i dont give a fuck , so what if u wanna try and play gangster? helllo, get a life please.

on a separate note, i died

2010-02-28T11:28:00.002+08:00

so this was how it end. things supposedly back to normal,but there are gaps which i cant fill ... people whom i cannot ever replace, i have now lost . why? one false move, a moment of excitement triggered a wave of unhappiness. idiotic, isnt it? oh well, sometimes, i do think of you. wondering, how and why

2010-02-16T08:22:00.002+08:00

wa lao. i said stop liao... joc, please.. don't bother about him. why would a nice & pretty girl like you want to have anything to do with him?! heeeheee .. my post is nice rightz? as long as u like it, can le.. and baishi.. i am SORRY, i simplified the post until i dont know how to make it any simpler and you still cannot comprehend. what is happening to this world?

2010-02-14T17:29:00.002+08:00

eh... all of u guys on my tagboard, can stop anot? PLEASE>> this is damn lame.. MELISSA, sorry for insulting him. u wanna leave, please do so. and baishi, say what u want, keyboard hero. try not to mess with joc, she's a girl who you wont want to cross path with. finally, happy chinese new year & happy valentine's day to u all :D GOD BLESS YOU

2010-02-11T22:15:00.002+08:00

ON a separate note. the guy on my tagboard.. could you please get a life? like.. go lead your mundane life. please do not waste my time. a wise guy would not want to kick a fuss with the wrong guy. i am sorry, if u dont accept my apology, ok. there wont be a chance for u to think twice

2010-02-11T22:14:00.001+08:00

YAY!!!!!!!!

EXAMS OVER!!!!

hahaha...

i rewarded myself with a 60 lap swim..

LOL!

then i went to see her..

was with her from... 3 plus to 8..

siao.

aiya,

thank god things are back to normal =D

muahahaha

2010-02-09T22:00:00.000+08:00

friendship? go fuck it.

2010-02-04T09:59:00.002+08:00

TOUGH COOKIE'S SISTER

the tough cookie

stout & strong.

looked quite smart,

but did everything wrong.

he has a sister,

lovely as can be.

secretly inside,

she loves to beat me.

she is a girl of fifteen,

but is nothing like a teen.

she acts like my mother,

nags like my father,

could things be any better?

despite the many traits she has,

she posses something i will never have.

a heart so big to love & care

at any moment, anywhere.

as such,

she is so dear to me.

without her,

life just cant be.

behind those compassionate eyes,

lies a person,

lost by lies.

i see her sorrow,

i feel her pain.

sometimes i wish,

wish i could just hold her and tell her,

what she means to me

how much the world need her.

this, i doubt she'll ever know

2010-02-03T20:01:00.001+08:00

lost love,

never found.

she left,

without a sound.

tall & strong i use to stand,

now i question if i'm a man.

things were great when it was then,

now hate consumes much of this man.

guangen

2010-01-31T10:05:00.000+08:00

friendship dies,

friendship built upon lies.

you had to,

i let you.

now,

this is it.

2010-01-30T09:45:00.002+08:00

night sets in,

i am all alone.

stuck in my room without my phone,

cowering in a corner,

i began to wonder,.

why hath life been such a blunder?

love transport one to paradise

But burns it before your eyes.

deep inside,

i wonder.

why love never dies?

2010-01-26T16:01:00.001+08:00

OMG!!!

i have been sick for sooo long..

sigh..

where's my jie jie?!?!

dumb...

as usual..

i wish..

ya...

ineversaytheICiwanthighcardbuyforme

2010-01-16T20:07:00.001+08:00

where is my denise?

has she left me?

i dunno...

wo hen xiang ta..

my xiao zhu...

pangseh her snail...

why?

what hath cause us to drift apart?

SIGH.

2010-01-15T18:49:00.000+08:00

OMG!!!!

TORN LIGAMENTS!!!!!!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

surgery?

yes?no?

omg!!!

2010-01-09T22:28:00.002+08:00

once a home, now a prison.

stood for hope, stands for hate.

felt love, feels hate.

family, enemy.

whole, broken.

p-l-e-a-s-e-j-u-s-t-f-u-c-k-o-f-f-a-n-d-d-i-e

bloody bunch of traitors,

liars,

worthless pricks,

proud bastards.

2010-01-09T11:10:00.001+08:00

i am so vexed..

i ask myself,

where is cheryl?

2010-01-06T20:56:00.001+08:00

i feel so weak.

so sick..

nausea, faintness.

how?

and those assholes,

i cannot cope,

i am losing my grip,

how i wish ,

the whole day was just literature that was taught.

how i wish.

i am brokened,

desperate , in need.

2010-01-05T16:31:00.001+08:00

bye,

farewell.

i have no more use for u,

lies after lies,

u decided,

i took the credit.

i will get the blame,

nvm..

rid u is enough.

our friendship, rubbish.

2010-01-04T21:15:00.003+08:00

dearest charmaine,
why hath thou tears filled eyes?
what injustice has befallen on you?
cupid should have his reasons.
even in adversities,
thy face shines as bright as the moon.
beautiful.
wipe ur tears, fair one.
for after dark comes light.
things will get better,
i promise.
lost love is just a phrase in life,
love WILL ultimately find its way back to you =)
it's not over.
i will always be here for you,
through thick and thin,
but i will die first ( dont argue!)
let me do what friends are for,
let me share your burden,
help you and bring you back on your feet!
in the end,
that beautiful smile of yours will return,
things will be better than before =)

2010-01-03T14:34:00.003+08:00

i am gonna tell a story.

i have a friend,

her name is *cant say*.

she was once close to me,

once upon a time, she care.

now, it's just bullocks after bullocks,

she promises,

rarely delivers.

maybe i am too selfish or narrow minded?

nah, your word is your honor.

i dont really ask for much,

if u say yes then keep it as a yes.

dont change your mind as and when you please.

now,

i can no longer say i trust you,

for whats left of you does not deserve it.

best part is,

you dont know i am talking about you

2010-01-03T09:26:00.003+08:00

cheryl! dont do thaT!

u know how it makes me feel..

so hopelessly in love with you,

HEH!.

if i sucked...

u... *censored*

WA LAO, u still owe me smth,

promised me like.. 2 months ago,

before i flew to india,

2 months later,

no progress...

BLEH

2010-01-01T20:40:00.002+08:00

dear God,

as i enter into 2010. i have a few prayer request. lord, i would like to commit dede, melissa, ashley , cheryl & charmaine into your hands. you know how dear they are to me and how much i love them,

i pray that you watch over them, take care of them and be their shelter and provider. shower your love upon them, let them feel it and yearn to know you more, be with them always. as for myself,

lord, i pray you help me turn from my ways and be submissive to your will, mold me and make me into what you desire. give the strength and wisdom as i endure life's ups and downs. please help me.

in jesus name,

amen.

2009-12-30T18:01:00.002+08:00

HEY YOU!

yeah u, dumb shit.

huh? whats my point?

my point is if u are not melissa u are not hot.

awwww, dont be sad.

life's like this..

u cant tell a crow that it looks like a swan,

can i?

maybe if u change ur name ,

do some exercise,

have abit more brains,

maybe then,

u'd be hot.

2009-12-29T22:59:00.002+08:00

when i needed u most,

u weren't there.

when u wanted smth out of me,

i gave,

and gave,

no returns.

i gave you everything,

got nothing in return.

don't you know?

where were you when i needed you?

2009-12-25T21:25:00.002+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

IM melissa,

I MISS ASHLEEY!

stupid, pangseh me!!!

lol...

ARRGH!!! why nat nat not here?!

this christmas aint a fun one.

no way..

isn't complete ...

without the likes of...

so yeah...

sad life

2009-12-23T12:02:00.003+08:00

is it wrong to say that we are all mad?

what is mad?

mad is defined as something society does not accept.

however,

to that individual,

his actions are sound.

to others, not.

is it then right?

right to label the minority for what we cannot accept of them?

are we all not mad?

do we not have out "dark sides"

why do we hold back?

is it fear?

food for thought.

2009-12-23T12:00:00.002+08:00

i donno...

lost lost lost

...

sometimes,

i think i am mad..

why am i waiting on cheryl?

why why why?

she's just abt everything i could possibly want..

no doubt she's SUPER tough to maintain,

but i love every inch of her..

sad reality eh?

2009-12-08T12:58:00.004+08:00

finally ! back from india!

and OMG!

i SPOKE TO MELISSA!!!!!!!

she's so awesome...

hahahahaha (maybe not)

i miss her... for some weird reason.

i love india,

i love the food!

but the smell is ...

not so good for sight seeing either.

india appeals to me because it is a land of opportunities,

a great place to do social work & touch lives.

though my stay was short,

a mere 19 days,

india has become a part of me,

fond memories and great friendships were forged.

melissa,

come with me!

experience the beauty of simplicity and the joy of loving others.

it doesnt require much to touch another's life,

just a willing heart is all thats required.

2009-12-01T23:25:00.002+08:00

wohoooooo!

hahaha, happy happy happy!

gosh, it seems so long since i last blogged.

i love india, but i miss my dear belovedS.

i miss... MELISSA x 1 billion,ASHLEY strawberry, CHERYL, CHERIE, VEDA jie!, jaclyn, charmaine, my boyfriends and Shi min ... and and... melissa again.

2009-11-17T21:16:00.001+08:00

i am leaving,

i wont be the same..

so much left behind..

so much i yearn for...

i melt ,

at the thought of you.

i cant bear to ...

but what choice do i have?

sigh,

2009-11-15T21:09:00.001+08:00

mel mel mel..

dont be angry..

not worthwhile...

he has his life..

besides,

it is not like this is the first time u know him...

he's like this...

u arent that dumb right?

yeah..

2009-11-14T21:57:00.001+08:00

i will never stop hating u,

i will push until u are dead

2009-11-13T10:15:00.002+08:00

it's less than a week left,

i am burnt-out.

so much left to do,

so little time.

many things i want,

none i get.

2009-11-10T08:03:00.001+08:00

it is only about a week away till i fly off.. a week.. my morale is low.. is it because i think too much? i am tired. i dont know if i wanna return.. deep inside, i am crying rivers... i dont wanna loose ashley.. alas, she's already lost.. my beloved cheryl... time goes by... melissa... i am sorry.